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AWESOME FRIENDS

_{~Nett-Kunst
Fuck! My best friend in real life! She loves Tom Kaulitz so I thought it'd be appropriate to have a nice looking Tom up there, just for her sake! ;]
Casey is the one person I'd probably go to the end of the earth for. She's a really, really cool artist and she has some pretty neat ideas! We're definitely into the same music, even though we have debates over Jensen Ackles or Jared Leto, she's just amazing. I've never felt so close to anyone in my entire life. I feel bad because I haven't seen her much these holidays but at school, I'm terrified to be away from her. Sometimes we draw piglets ok.
I'M JEFFREE FUCKING STAR, BITCHES!

~Kitty-Ells
One of my oldest friends on here, I've known he for about three years? We only really started talking about a year and a bit ago but I don't regret any of it. I trust her more than anyone I actually know in real life. If there's something bugging me, Kyah is the first person I'll go to about it, even if I don't know her IRL she's one of the only people I trust with my feelings.
Her art is really fucking good too so be sure to check her out or I might hit you with a pug.
Not only is Kyah a brilliant friend but also a great roleplayer and I do consider her my roleplaying partner, even if she doesn't agree, haha. I force her into everything, believe me.

~xopiore
Leon doesn't need a banner ok. I really really really respect Leon because he knows what to say and always has a logical explanation. He doesn't try and make him look better than everyone else and he's really down to earth. I know most people think he's a complete twat but yeah, he is, and that's what makes him Leon. He's not afraid to tell someone they're being stupid or that they're wrong, but even if he does, he doesn't just make out that they're wrong because he has a better answer. It's not that at all.
Also, Leon is so cool that you don't compare. It's his fault I ever liked Tokio Hotel so blame the Welsh. He knows a lot about music and always has a justified opionion on everything, and he uses common sense, omg! That's so hard to find these days, seriously. He's probably the only male I trust...ever.

~Demonotica
FOCK!!! Gab is one of the only people who, at the time, just told me straight. I always got along with people older than me and when I talked to Gab, I realised how sheltered I was. I was pretty arrogant too, I was really closed-minded (music wise) and I had really stupid, judgemental opinions on things but since I talked to Gab, I did mature. She hasn't been around for a while and I miss her terribly but I thought I'd say thank you anyway. She's been one of my closest friends online and was there for me most of the time. I have so much respect for her and I'm willing to give her the time back that she spent talking to me.
Another thing I really must thank Gab for is art. She was the only person to ever really criticise me. Not only did she challenge my opinions, but she gave me a lot of help with my art. Although it doesn't really show through now (haha), she has taught me a lot about colouring, anatomy, and just art in general. Her dA is inactive but if you did ever know her, she was brilliant artist with a lot of talent, to me anyway. I don't care what you think of it LOL

~Pandora-xo
Holy fuckin shit. I love this girl so much, oh my god LOL. Rosie has an addictive personality, like McDonald's. You know she's bad for you but you keep going back for more and more and more and then BAM! PaedoBill gettin all COCKatiel on yo ass. jk jk!!!!!!!
Ok so Rosie is my Tokio Hotel Twin to the extreme. TOM SHOWIN HIS MAD SKILLS!!! We were convinced Tom Kaulitz looked like Zac Efron on a photoshopped picture oh god ;_; It was so scary, seriously, she was so sade.
LET'S CRY OVER HOW AWESOME BILL'S HAIR IS WHEN THEY'RE OBVIOUSLY LIP-SYNCING IN ITALY.
....
FOOLED U!!!!!
no ok go check out her art, she's fucking brilliant and is definitely my idol.
I mean it.
Don't make me get Kyle Hilton OH GOD TOO LATE. PEROXIDE!!!!!!! *slams mouse*
Rosie is ChristianU2uber bye

~Crime-scene-fairy
Hurr de hurr. My oldest friend on the internet. I met her on Neopets like three years ago! I miss the old days but I'm glad where we are now. There was a few months where we fell out and didn't talk but I'm glad we're back to being friends again. I could say she's a bit like a roleplay partner Her art is getting better and we do share the same music interests which is always win-win!!!

OTHER AWESOME PEOPLE

UBER FAGGOT HELLO? jk jk she's brilliant. her art is improving, and it's looking freakin' awesome DERP.

a verrryyy nice person she's so fun to talk to and amazing at drawing nipple piercings ;] she makes Tom yummy and Bill even yummier!

i think this is my idol <333 bill in hair clips, ftw! her style is different, but unique! check her out or i hit you with a pug :{ those pugs hurt, you know.

HFDJSHHSDJG fock, she's so nice, and always seems to listen even though no one really listens to her :/ her art has improved sosososo much!}

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Journal Entry: Thu Nov 12, 2009, 8:08 AM

_{into the light,
like a phantom rider,
i'm dying tonight.
so dark and cold,
i drive alone.
it took me a while but i do actually like Phantomrider now. btw im not actually going anywhere and the title is just a song lyric lol

today can't become any worse.
actually; it could but i don't like thinking of the future. it scares me. tomorrow can only be better, right? wrong. you couldn't be any more wrong. and after that, the days only get harder, longer and more strenuous.

one day, it won't be this hard.
one day, it won't hurt.
one day, i'll be free from all of this.

just one day but unfortunately, that day is never going to come.

i have a maths exam tomorrow and i was really nervous, but now i'm like '...what? this is easy.'
just thought you'd all like to know lol. i'm so demotivated. i miss him already but he's still here. breathing, living but just barely. it's a sad thing to say but it's not like he has much of a life left. i don't want that phone to ring.
i don't want to be the only person in the house that can understand what they're saying to me.
i don't want to have to translate it, those horrible fucking words.

i love you. i'd never have the courage to tell you, dieter, because i'm too shy. but i do love you, and i won't forget you, or what you've done for me and my family.

i actually doubt any of this makes sense to you but if it does, then yay.

TL;DR - cancer sucks.

/emo}

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_{My adoptable, Billa! ^w^

WHAT ROCKS:
♥ Tokio Hotel ♥
Supernatural
Kingdom Hearts
Music
Pugs
Roleplaying when I can be bothered
ASTIGMATIC!
Art
That feeling you get when you wake up from an awesome, inspiring dream
Berlin [Strifytown]
The Kaulitz Twins
Casey ♥
Subway

WHAT FAILS:
Arrogance
Ignorance
McDonald's
GROWLER!!!!! I VERY WANT IT! i am in shok! fuck)) [i lied, i love growler LOL]
brokenCYDE
Hadouken!
Some other shit ok
Me
Using the shift button like now}

Devious Info

Current Residence: England
Interests: Music, Art, Rockstars, Bill Kaulitz ♥, Kyah, boys in hairclips
Favourite movie: Labyrinth, Fight Club, Requiem For A Dream, Caught on Camera, Lion King, Panic Room, Sid and Nancy
Favourite band or musician: Tokio Hotel, Cinema Bizarre, Manic Street Preachers, 30STM, Lady Gaga
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Operating System: Windows Vista: Home Premium
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Wallpaper of choice: Tokio Hotel ♥
Favourite game: Kingdom Hearts
Favourite gaming platform: Xbox 360
Favourite cartoon character: Axel from Kingdom Hearts
Personal Quote: It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.
Tools of the Trade: Art tablet, Adobe PhotoShop 7.0, paper, pencils, colouring pencils